Back to work tomorrow

The photo that heads this blog was taken in … well actually although both Paul and I remember taking the photo we can’t agree on where it was taken. And THAT is an accurate description of our lives. Accurate because we have been to so many places they all seem to meld together.

When I look at the photo warm feelings fill me. I love driving with Paul. We have a lot of fun crisscrossing the Continent. (BTW: would that mean that we could be called “incontinent?”) There is laughter and hard work. We appreciate each other’s skills and compliments are not rare between us. We are best friends going on one adventure after another.

Even our truck has become an identity in our team. I call her Black Beauty of course. She is the partner we work with everyday and she does what we could never do. She is strong and reliable and I am attached to her emotionally. When I grind her gears I audibly apologize and imagine her wincing. But she forgives me and keeps giving all she has to get the job done.

After a long shift (11 hours) there is the cozy feeling of getting changed into my pjs brushing my teeth and climbing into the bunk. Snapping the cage in place (seatbelt webbing made to cover the bunk with 3 seatbelt buckles) and snuggling under the blankets I listen to the tires on the road; the power transferring from her differential to the drives. I love being lulled to sleep while my husband starts his shift behind the wheel. I trust his driving.

Then there is the beauty of the land that we have become familiar with; the joy of praying together before starting a shift; the satisfaction of on time delivery; camaraderie with other drivers, especially Schneider drivers; the benefit of being well paid; the visits with family and friends along the route and the joy of time at home.

God has abundantly provided for us and although we only get to church once a month, He has never forgotten how many hairs we have on our heads, or in which bottle He caught my tears. His thoughts toward us are innumerable and His plans are for our good. Today in church my favorite Pastor spoke and the Lord said to me, “Why are you sad Denise? Are my provisions not enough for you?” I am so foolish Lord, and You are so wise. You know the beginning and the end. I trust you and all the room in which you have placed me.

Promises from today’s blog:

Luke 12: 27-30
Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith!  And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well

Luke 12:7
But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows.

Psalm 56:8
Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?

Psalm 40:5
Many, O LORD my God, are Your wonderful worksWhich You have done; And Your thoughts toward us Cannot be recounted to You in order; If I would declare and speak of them,They are more than can be numbered.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you,plans to give you hope and a future.

Psalm 143:8
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.

Psalm 31:8
And hast not shut me up into the hand of the enemy: thou hast set my feet in a large room.

Proverbs 19:3
The foolishness of man perverteth his way: and his heart fretteth against the LORD.

Job 12:13
To God belong wisdom and power; counsel and understanding are his.

Revelation 21:6
He said to me: “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To him who is thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life.

Posted in Uncategorized | 4 Comments

Great expectations

It feels comfortable when I have visualized and imagined a scenario before it happens. There is a calm feeling that accompanies a sense of hope when change in my life is a result of a purposeful path. When my great expectations meet reality I am relaxed and happy. (Now listen for the calm pleasant music)

However, when my expectations are lost; tossed overboard in exchange for the chance to survive the storm. When a radical course correction is made because there was no other choice. Then the chaos starts. (Music slides into dramatic and dark)

I know because it has happened to me. The first time I felt it was when we moved from a loving country community to a smallish city. It would wash over me without warning and the question would be, “What are you doing here? Do you live here? Why?” I would have to retrace decisions, validate the purpose and then reality would settle back upon me.

Its happening again. It’s been two years. Just today the pain came over me and the loss of my great expectations was pressing down on my chest. It was not overwhelming. I didn’t even have to sit down. I just swallowed and made a conscious choice to accept the pain as an uninvited guest in my life. A guest sent to me by my loving God.

So what promise did I take to my shoulder? What truth did I wear like a garment to help me through the pain?

2 Corinthians 9:8 “And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that iall things at all times, having all that youneed, you will abound in every good work.”

Deuteronomy 31:8 “The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

Now let me tell you that I took the challenge I mentioned in my last blog at least 30 years ago and it has been a transforming power in my life. Today when the pain came over me I didn’t recite the verses like I would have when I first started believing by living the truth. Today, 30 years later, I simply believed that God would not abandon me. I KNOW Him because He has revealed Himself to me in His word and I believe what He says.

Take a promise and live by it. Stand firm, walk in truth. denise

Posted in Uncategorized | 3 Comments

A new blog

A new blog is like a fresh pad of paper. It holds some awesome threat as well as adventurous opportunity. In grade 9 I had an autograph book. Mr. Parker, my math teacher wrote this, “Life lies before you, fresh as the driven snow. Be careful how you tread it for every step will show.” As soon as I read the words they pressed themselves into my mind and I knew they were important words. I have never forgotten them, although I have not heeded their counsel. Often my footprints have lead to places that I wouldn’t want anyone to follow. My new blog will mark my footprints but I hope to lead you to know the faithfulness of the one that I am following.

Hebrews 11:11b says, “because she judged Him faithful who had promised.” It speaks of how Sarah’s faith changed her life and the future of  the nation of Israel, God’s people. Yes it is faith, believing what God says is true and living by it that changes life from boring to meaningful, from threatening to peaceful. If you are tired of trying to fake your christian life because your experience of faith isn’t what you were expecting. If you yawn when you go to church, or when you look into the Bible. Then I have a challenge for you.

1. Find a promise in the Bible. 2. Live in the light of that truth. Period. That’s it. Too simple? Try God.

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment